I am so tired. And, where is the time going?

by angie.

I am so tired today. There have been a few times in the middle of the night when I am so tired I’m falling asleep sitting up. But I am also happier than ever, so it’s all good. And the majority of nights haven’t been bad. I get up to feed and change the babies, which takes 45-60 minutes, then I go back to sleep. It’s strange though to think that in the last six weeks I haven’t slept more than 3 hours consecutively. It sounds crazy when I think of it that way. In reality, it’s not bad. I probably get between 5-8 hours of sleep each night, it’s just broken up into 2-3 hour segments.

I have a feeling we would be sleeping longer stretches at night if Nora were our only child. Usually it’s Ben that wakes to feed, and then I wake her and feed her too so they stay on the same schedule and I’m not feeding them staggered round the clock. One night Ben woke up hungry after only 2.5 hours, so I decided to let her sleep and see how much longer she would go. She didn’t stir until the next feeding, so she went almost 5 hours! Even though I didn’t get that long a stretch of sleep with her, I was happy to see how long she went and know that it’s at least possible!

I know this is temporary and pretty soon here we will be getting longer stretches of sleep at night. I’m just trying to soak up every minute of every phase. It passes SO quickly. We’ve been looking at pics of the twins from a few weeks ago and they have already grown and changed! It’s a strange feeling. I want them to grow and I don’t want them to grow at the same time. I can’t really explain it. I love seeing them get cuter and cuter and I love seeing them learn and develop and each new thing they do is exciting. But I am distressed when I see that they’re filling out their newborn clothes now and soon they’ll be done with those clothes and we’ll box them up and save them for the next baby. It’s crazy we’re already almost to that point! Today I ordered diapers and I had to do the math and make sure they wouldn’t outgrow this size before we used up the boxes I was ordering! It’s crazy. But we welcome each new stage. It’s so fun.

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