For some reason I don’t feel complete without some kind of baked treat readily available in the apartment. Scary. Today it was oatmeal cookies.

I wanted to give a quick update on the job search. Yesterday morning I went to a dentist’s office who invited me back this week, after an interview in June. I shadowed the hygienist all morning and she showed me the ropes. They invited me for a working interview on Tuesday. I am soooooo nervous. I’ll be seeing a full day of patients. The office is wonderful though, everyone is so incredibly nice and it’s very high quality. I would love to work there, I hope it goes well.

I am unbelievably nervous. What if I get in there and my mind goes blank and I have no idea what to do? What if I can’t work fast enough and I get behind? What if I can’t figure out how to use Dentrix and have to ask a million questions? What if I’m too slow and I ruin the schedule? What if I make a mistake in the charts? What if I make people wait because I’m too slow?!

In my dream last night I completely forgot to come tell the doc I was finished cleaning so he could come check, and I got like 30 minutes behind and they told me to just leave. The sad thing was the doctor is so nice, I distinctly remember that in the dream it wasn’t like he was mad, it was like he felt sorry for me. Ugh.

I think I’m going to be insanely nervous no matter what, but if I can just keep moving and at least act like I’m confident and in control, I’ll consider the day a success. I am very freaked out so prayers would be appreciated!